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The North Shore Watch – by George Edward Woodberry

The North Shore Watch – by George Edward Woodberry 150 150 Jason Stadtlander

In continuation of my Massachusetts (more specifically North Shore of Boston) poetry collection, here is the next poem. The first two can be found at “Lynn, Lynn, City of Sin” and “Paul Revere’s Ride“. This is a long one by George Edward Woodberry, but a very good poem as well.

George Edward WoodberryThe North Shore Watch
by George Edward Woodberry
(of Beverly, Massachusetts, 1890)

 

i.

First dead of all my dead that are to be,
Who at life’s flush with me wast wont to roam
The pine-fringed borders of this surging sea,
From far and lonely lands Love brings me home
To this wide water’s foam ;
Here thou art fallen in thy joyful days,

Life quenched within thy breast, light in thy eyes;

And darkly from thy ruined beauty rise
These flowerless myrtle-sprays ;
The hills we trod enfold thee evermore,
The gray and sleepless sea breaks round the or-
phaned shore.

 

ii.

All things are lovely as they were, and still
They draw with gladness toward me as a friend ;
The evening star doth touch me with the thrill
Of welcome, and the waves their voices blend
To hail my exile’s end.
Oft while I wandered in those weary lands,
This dear-remembered shore would comfort me,

Seeing in thought the everlasting sea
Washing his yellow sands ;
But now the scene I longed for gives me pain
Since he is dead, and ne’er shall feel its joy again.

iii.
Still planet, making beautiful the west,
Bright bringer of the stars and sheltered

Easing our hearts, as some beloved guest,
Whom for a little while our eyes may keep,
And through long years shall weep ;
O eloquent with flashes to the soul,

Even as his eyes beneath thy pure empire
Beamed the mute music of the heart’s desire,
Thee, too, doth fate control ;
And brief as his thy hour of light must be —
To earth her starry hush, my solitude to me !

iv.

Yet here our dayspring long ago was born,
While heaven still hovered near earth’s dusky frame ;
Light touched the isles, and joyously the morn
O’erflowed the orient with prophetic flame,
And on the waters came,
Crimson and pearl, and woke the singing shore ;
On over murmuring waves the glad light swept ;

On through the west the loosened glory leapt
The far bine uplands o’er ;
And slowly rose the sun, and made the sea
White with his splendor, and filled heaven with
purity.

v.

Upon this beach we welcomed in the world,
And loved the lore of its wise solitude,
Where on the foaming sands the surges swirled,
Or broad, blue-belted calm, in blessed brood,
Lay many a shining rood ;
Here in that prime we kept our boyish tryst,
When woke our April and the need to rove ;
We trod the mantle that the white moon wove,
We pierced the star-looped mist ;
And ever where our eager feet might roam,
The air was morning, and the loneliest spot was home.
vi.

The eloquent voices of the yearning sea

Called to us, strong as syllables of fate,
And, wafting in, like some lost memory,
Subdued us to the haunting hopes that wait
Round boyhood’s rapt estate ;
The deep spell moved, a passion in our blood,
And made the throbbing of our hearts keep time

Unto the laughter of the waves, and chime
With thunders of the flood ;
And subtly as a dream takes hue and form,
Our spirits clothed their youth in ocean’s sun
and storm.

vii.

Still would we watch, wave-borne from dawn
to dark,
The pools of opal gem the windless bay ;
Or touch at eve the purple isles, and mark
Where, by the moon, far on the edge of day,
The shore’s pale crescent lay ;
Or up broad river-reaches are we gone,

Through sunset mirrored in the hollow tide —
In beauty sphered, as some lone bird enskied,
The halcyon boat drifts on,
To twilight, and the stars, and deepest night,
With phosphorescent gleams, and dark oars drop-
ping light.

 

vii.

Ah, then a presence moved within this deep,

That more than beauty made its regions dear ;
O’er the long levels of its golden sleep

The light that beams from the eternal year
Flashed on the spirit clear ;
And wheresoe’er we saw the ocean roll,
With sounds of harmony his waves among,
The song that breathed before the lyre was
strung

Gave echo to the soul ;
And tremulous the immortal instincts woke
That prophesy of Him in whom the sweet dawn
broke.

ix.

Alas, the faery light that truth once wore !

Alas, the easy questing of the heart !
When, by the hushed and visionary shore,
The dreaming hope, wherein all things have part,
Made our young pulses start !
Once, once I knew thy sweetness, O salt sea !
I reaped along thy furrows bearded grain ;
Thy groves, that never drink the sun nor rain,
Gave nectarous fruit to me ;
And all thy herbless pastures yielded wine,
Deep-hearted, fragrant, bright — ah, then his
hand clasped mine !

Ay, heart with heart companioned we went on,

And ever lovelier was the wooded shore ;
More joyous bloomed the May, and warmer shone
The slant light down the forest’s muffled floor,
With music vaulted o’er ;
Ah, when the bluebird through the meadows darts,
Still yellow dogtooths gleam amid the brakes,
And fearlessly on all the green-leaved lakes
Lilies unfold their hearts ;
Earth’s children slumber when the wild winds
rise —
The tempest passes o’er, and heaven looks through
their eyes.

xi.

But the dark pines, whose heart is like the sea’s,
Mourn for one darling flower they nurtured here,
With morning fed, and deep, deep harmonies —
The sweetest blossom that the windy year
E’er rifled and left sere ;
Wake, O ye violets preluding the May,
And many a barren slope for beauty win !
Burst, white laurels, flush your cups within,
And whisper, spray to spray !
But till the cypress buds, and blooms the yew,
The sylvan year brings not the love that once ye
knew.

 

xii.

Too swiftly fled the green and fragrant time !
Bleak on the vacant earth the North Wind fell,
Bitter and fierce, to beat the frozen clime,
In shriveled fields and ruined woods to dwell,
And on the flood’s black swell ;
But us the rude transformer could not change ;
We saw his pale dominions gleam afar,
His keen skies flash with many a friendlier star,
And, lo, the vision strange —
Dear to our faith — far in the alien north,
With faltering hues and faint, a dream of morn
stole forth.

xiii.

Such presages before us ever went,

And flushed the skies with joyful heraldings ;
We trusted beauty — ‘t is the element

Wherein the soul unfolds her poising wings,
And heavenward soars, and sings ;
But in the dawn and by the star-swept tides,
In dim melodious aisles of lonely pines,
We felt the heart of sorrow none divines,
That in all things abides ;
And borne on sighing winds came sounds of woe,
Whose burden well we knew, but he feared not to
know.

 

xiv.

I saw the beauty of the early world

More lovely imaged in his lucid mind ;
Pure at his heart of innocence impearled
Shone the white truth no search can ever find,
In love, as light, enshrined ;
Him nature folded childlike to her breast,
Gave him her peace, her strength, her ease,her joy;

Fate could not move him, doubt could not annoy,
Nor sorrow, all men’s guest ;
And woven of her music fell his voice
On the wide-glimmering eve, and bade my soul rejoice.

xv.

” Ere yet we knew Love’s name,” he said to me,
” He gave the new earth to our boyish hands ;
For us morn blossoms, and the azure sea
Ruffles and smooths his long and gleaming sands
Upon a hundred strands ;
In green and gold the radiant mist exhales,
When through the willow buds the blue

March blows,
And sowing Persia through the world the rose
Reddens our western vales :
Clasped with the light, bathed with the glowing air,
Rest we in his embrace who made our paths so fair!

 

xvi.

” Why fear we ? wherefore doubt ? is Love not strong,
Whose starry shield o’er-roofs our mortal way,
Who makes his home within our hearts lifelong,
An instinct to divine, a law to sway,
A hero’s faith to stay ?
See, all life beats responsive to his might ;
Its yearning in his tameless hope began ;
Its dawning triumph in the heart of man
Is his far-beaconing light ;
He builds the empire of the golden years ;
The red strife, too, is his, the field of blood and
tears.

xvii.

” Through Him we look toward life with conquering eyes,
Nor swerve, nor falter, though his fire must blend
With our young hearts as flame with sacrifice,
Consuming all we are for that great end
He bids our souls befriend ;
The laws invincible of his firm state

Work with us till the vision grows the fact,
And thought, slow-suppling into perfect act,
Makes our desire our fate ;
Nor elsewise unto truth may man attain,
Though built in Shelley’s heart, though orbed in
Shakespeare’s brain.

 

xviii.

” His are we, as we were before we saw

The murder-strife that ravin cannot sate,
The fierce, incessant moan, the strokes of law,
The deep betrayal of our birth and state
That baffles us with fate ;
Be life’s inevitable sadness ours,

The evil that we cannot help but will,
The good with viewless consequence in ill,
Our maimed and thwarted powers !
Nor yet ” — I hear him say -— ” repining know,
The shadow-clouded earth through the blue deep must go.

xix.

” It moves, and plunges to the central sun,

Its paltry ruin flashes, and is gone ;
The stars, indifferent, their calm courses run,
The constellations shine as erst they shone,
The clustered heavens go on ;
Who shall foresee of all the one blind doom
When darkness shall inhabit torpid space,
Still, starless, orphaned of dawn’s lovely face,
Unfathomable tomb ! —
Yet may the soul pitch her adventure high,
With beauty and with love impassioned, though we die,

 

xx.

” Beauty that sings of unisons unseen,

Bright emanation of consenting laws,
In flower, wave, shell, blue skies, and pastures green,
The passing of the power that hath no pause,
That knows nor fate nor cause ;
The thrill of life aye pulsing through the void,
With rhythmic motions felt in sun and star,
And galaxies of splendor streaming far,
Nor in their woe destroyed ;
The presence wonderful, beneath, above —
In the lone heart of man it wakes, incarnate
Love.

xxi.

” It hallows all, the aureole He wears

Whom frail mortality hath never bound ;
Who in his hands the burning sphere upbears,
Though stars grow gray, their dateless ruin found,
And perish in their round ;
He is — and, lo, ‘t is loveliness we see,

The heavens majestic, and the joyous earth ;
Is not — and all the glory and the mirth
Are things of memory ;
Long, long o’er us be his divine control —
The beauty of the world, the rapture of the soul ! ”

 

xxii.

Such musings ours upon the moonlit shore,
While dark with motion sways the luminous tide;
On come the long, black waves, and, whitening o’er,
Fall, far-resounding, eddy, and divide,
And up the smooth sands glide :
So, life-engirdling, shone eternal truth,
So darkly luminous, so swift, so strong,
Flooding our mortal brink, it broke along
The winding shores of youth ;
There silent, glad, in Love’s repose we lay —
Calm was among the stars, peace on the heaving
bay.

xxiii.

Oh, wherefore could we not forever dwell
In that seclusion of the world new-born,
Where on our passive youth the promise fell
That dawns beneath the sweet brows of the morn,
The light none lives to scorn !
Too soon we left the haunts of boyish thought ;
Moored swung the boat beside the shining sea;

The arethusas flowered in secrecy,
And fell, unloved, unsought ;
Lone the rare cardinal, autumn’s herald, stood ;
The bittersweet gleamed red in the deserted wood.

 

xxiv.

One watch was ours ; far o’er the ebbing sea,

Heavy and dark, the rainy shadows lay ;
From his familiar door he walked with me
To that broad hill, grown dear in boyhood’s day,
The old field-trodden way ;
Chill rose the mists, and faint the distant roar
Of ocean sounded ; our old seat we took
Silent and sad ; cold autumn’s dying look
The summer landscape wore ;
We minded not — in our hearts shadows were
The wide earth harbors not, housing their misery
there.

xxv.
The Hour sprang forth from universal time,
Of his joy-hearted race the last sad Hour ;
Crowned heir of all his brothers of the prime,
Bodied more nobly, girt with secret power,
Starred with Love’s passion flower ;
Through night he sprang, and black the flakes of gloom
Fled, afar off, the lustre of his feet ;
Our hill he sought, aud made the darkness sweet,
Staying the wand of doom ;
And dear as from the Grail’s all-precious sight,
Grace from his presence flowed, and fell on us
as light.

 

xxvi.

We seemed to live within the soul alone

Of sorrow’s silent love the loftier mood ;
The spirit, vibrant to love’s perfect tone,
Sang love that was, more subtly understood,
In love to be, renewed ;
And was death hovering there, with shades of woe,
Round that dear head the sullen frosts confine? –
Dear hands, dear lips, dear eyes, I knew thee mine,
Mine, mine, where’er I go !
The Hour was dead ; we rose, we took our ways,
Forever lost to sight through all the exiled days.

xxvii.

O Song, move softly through the laureled lyre,

O melancholy music breathing woe ;
With strains that trembling loose love’s wild desire,
And waft it to its peace, through sorrow go,
With ocean pauses, slow !
Strike nobler notes, O laden as thou art,
That die not on the ear with dying tones ;
Oh, touch the finer chords man’s nature owns
To ease the breaking heart ;
And harmonies that of the soul partake,
Heard in the days of joy, in evil days awake !

 

xxviii.

Heavy is exile wheresoe’er it be !

Or where his armored ship’s strong bows divide
Green, empty hollows of the Afric sea,

Or where my broad-browed prairies, westering wide,
A race of men abide ;
And life in exile is a thing of fears,
A song bereaved of music, a delight
That sorrow’s tooth doth feast on, day and night,
A hope dissolved in tears,
A poem in the dying spirit — aught
Lost to its use and beauty, desolate, idle, naught !

xxix.

Heavy is exile wheresoe’er it be !

To miss the sense of love from out the days ;
To wake, and work, and tire, nor ever see
Love’s glowing eyes suffused with tender rays —
Darling of human praise !
To lose Love’s ministry from out our life,
Nor gentle labor know for dear ones wrought,

When once Love lorded the thronged ways of thought,
And quelled the harsh world strife ;
To feel the hungering spirit slowly stilled,
While hours and months and years the barren
seasons build.

 

xxx.

Ever to watch, like an unfriended guest,

The sun rise up and lead the days through heaven,
The silent days, on to the flaming west,
The unrecorded days, to darkness given,
Unloved, unwept, unshriven :
With our great mother, Earth, to live alone ;
To clasp in silence Wisdom’s moveless knees ;
To fix dumb eyes, that know fate’s whelming seas,
On her eternal throne ;
While better seems it, were the soul sunk deep
In life’s death-mantled pool, sealed in oblivious
sleep !

xxxi.

” Alas,” I cried, beneath the sun-bright sky,
” What profits it to search what Athens says —
To heap a little learning ere we die,

Blind pilgrims, walk the world’s deserted ways,
And lose the living days ;
To cheat sad memory’s self with storied woes ;
To summon up sweet visions out of books
Wherein old poets have enshrined love’s
looks ;
To seek in pain repose ;
Oh, cup of bitterness he too must taste,
Shut in his homeless ship upon the salt sea-
waste ! ”

 

xxxii.

What though o’er him the tropic sunset bloom,

With hyacinthine hues and sanguine dyes,
And down the central deep’s prof oundest gloom
Soft blossoms, fallen from the wreathed skies,
The seas imparadise ?
With light immingling, colors, dipped in May,
Through multitudinous changes still endure —
Orange and unimagined emeralds pure
Drift through the softened day ;
” Alas,” he whispers, ” and art thou not nigh ?
Earth reaches now her height of beauty ere I die.”

xxxiii.

And I give answer, — ” Would that he were here !
Three halos, crescent-horned, of purest grain,
In shadowless keen ether burning clear,

In morn’s blue eastern depths, a glory, reign
Burn brighter, burn, and wane ;
Never to us,” I whisper, ” by that strand
Stepped morn, so diademed upon the sea ;
Sweet wanderer, joyous shall thy roaming be
Across this wind-swept land !
Urge on thy western flight and die in bliss !
On those unsheltered waves his temples didst
thou kiss.”

 

xxxiv.

Brief now his voyaging is o’er those far seas,
By shoal and reef that the lost mariner mock,
By lands of palm that nurse the poisoned breeze,
And pillared isles whose foam-girt bases rock
With the tornado’s shock ;
The branding suns smite down on glassy waves ;
They sink ; on high strange stars malignant roll,

The regents of the pale, untraveled pole,
Whose coasts no mortal braves :
Why will he on? — Come back, O bleeding heart !
O stricken soul, return ! Dea,th hunteth where
thou art.

xxxv.

Eager as sea-birds from their bonds set free,

He sought the ancient harbors of his home ;
The Southern Cross fell in the frozen sea,
And stars of gladness, washed in northern foam,
His boyhood heavens upclomb ;
Once more beneath the tender spring he drinks
The fountains of his youth for which he yearned ;

The beauty of the shore, like love returned,
Deep in his spirit sinks ;
The violets linger, wide the laurels bloom —
Alas, the flowering earth is his eternal tomb !

 

xxxvi.

Moan, melancholy Ocean, he is dead

In whom thou hadst thy life, thy throbbing

Our woe, O melancholy Ocean, shed

In music round thy ever-strangered boy,
Whom the blind deeps destroy !
Waken, dark pines ! that ruinous eclipse

Hath broke the tender league of musing youth,

And shut love’s insights and the hopes of  truth
Within his parted lips :
I take, ay me, no welcome from his hands —
He comes not through the wood, nor down the shadowy sands.

xxxvii.

From him the lone sun doth withhold his light ;

To him lorn eve her western star denies ;
But oh, a lovelier world hath sunk in night,
Its music-breathing fields, its dreaming skies,
Dark in his darkened eyes ;
The rapturous element is still, in him,
And all of nature that can perish, dead ;
Oblivion gathers o’er his obscure head ;
Death binds him, face and limb ;
Earth-sundered soul, no beauty now he knows,
Nor sense nor act of love sweetens his long repose.

 

xxxviii.

On crag and beach I hear his threnody ;

I touch the myrtles clinging round his grave ;
But weak is all that severs him from me,
Faint and far off, although my heart will crave
The old response he gave ;
No, not the moaning waves nor sighing pines
Persuade my soul of loss, nor blinding tears —

I love him, I shall love through lonely years,
Where’er my life declines ;
I lean my head down to the flowerless sod —
I feel his shepherding as when on earth he trod.

Mortality sways not, while heaven shall last,
The starry years that were when he was mine ;
Death blots not out a fair-recorded past,

Whose meanings deeper are than men divine,
Who write it, line by line ;
The years of noble life are pledges deep,
That bind futurity our souls to friend ;
Woe cannot cancel them, nor far time end
The privilege they keep ;
They live — their light still blessed where it leads,
Their hoarded music loosed, pure song, in perfect deeds.

 

xl.

Yea, he to whom Love was as God is dead ;
Cold, mute, and dark, he unresponsive lies ;
A joyless form, the kindling presence fled,
The spirit faded from his wistful eyes ;
No more will he arise !
Yet not in vain was our adoring trust,
Our deep-vowed fealty, our service done ;
To finer issues love that was lives on,
Nor moulders into dust :
Of Love, the Giver, still ray song must be,
The Victor, Love, repeat, whose grace descends
on me.

xli.

Love blends with mine the spirit I deplore,
Like music in sweet verse that lasts for aye;
While yet we wandered by our native shore,
He sent the blessings for which all men pray,
That cannot pass away ;
He wrought with ministries of star and flower
And the gray sea, to build our lives secure ;
He made the sources of the spirit pure,
And with truth lent us power ;
And him to me He gave — and lo, his gift
Is changeless, and doth now my soul from death
uplift.

 

xlii.

On deepest night arisen, the morning star
Trembles across the wide, unquiet sea,
And heavenward springs, with influence felt afar —
The world’s new hope he leads, the day to be,
The life that waits for me ;
Speed on, glad star, and golden be thy flight,
Inviolable, serene, the waters o’er !
Fear not the eclipsing west, born to soar,
And, dying, die in light !
Bring, bring the morning with her tides of song,
Her floods of amber air, breaking earth’s heights
along.

 

xliii.

Beauty abides, nor suffers mortal change.
Eternal refuge of the orphaned mind ;
Where’er a lonely wanderer, I range,

The tender flowers shall my woes unbind,
The grass to me be kind ;
And lovely shapes innumerable shall throng
On sea and prairie, soft as children’s eyes ;
Morn shall awake me with her glad surprise ;
The stars shall hear my song ;
And heaven shall I see, whate’er my road,
Steadfast, eternal, light’s impregnable abode.

 

xliv.

Love, too, abides, and smiles at savage death,
And swifter speeds his might and shall endure ;
The secret flame, the unimagined breath,
That lives in all things beautiful and pure,
Invincibly secure ;
In Him creation hath its glorious birth,
Subsists, rejoices, moves prophetic on,
Till that dim goal of all things shall be won
Men yearn for through the earth ;
Voices that pass we are of Him, the Song,
Whose harmonies the winds, the stars, the seas,
prolong.

 

xlv.

Break, surging sea, about the lovely shore !
O dimly heaving plains, through darkness sweep !
Thy restless waves, with morning stars roofed o’er,
Their incommunicable secret keep,
Impenetrable deep !
The eldest years on time’s oblivious verge
Saw thee through tempest-weltering night uplift

Great, mountainous continents amid thy drift,
And their tall peaks submerge ;
The vast, abysmal, wandering fields moved on,
Whelming the wasteful wreck of the old world
undone.

 

xlvt.

And still round mortal shores thy billows roll,
And shall through long, long ages yet unborn;
Lone splendor of the sense-illumined soul,
Eternal moaning of the spirit lorn,
By strokes of loss outworn ;
Thy terrors image our blind mortal state,
Dark with impending doom and whirling woe,

And monsters in thy bosom come and go,
And death is thy fell mate ;
Ah yet, through sun and storm, gray ocean, roll,
Love clasps thy mighty tides in his profound control.

xlvii.

Surge on, thy melancholy is not doom !

Surge, O wan sea, into the golden day !
The morn is breathing off thy purple gloom,
The isles lift up their promise, dim and gray,
Love holds his dauntless sway !
Thy ripples kiss the shore with lips of foam,
Thy waves are dawning soft — the winds blow free !

Keep thou the eternal watch, O dear, dear sea,
Those far lands I must roam !
Lo, ’tis the sunrise — and the sphered stars move,
Singing unseen, like silent thoughts through silent love.

Paul Revere’s Ride – by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Paul Revere’s Ride – by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow 150 150 Jason Stadtlander

I noticed that a lot of people have enjoyed my posting of the full “Lynn, Lynn City of Sin” poem, so I thought I might put up a few more poems over the next few days relating to Massachusetts. None are quite as colorful as the Lynn one, but here is the first:

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Paul Revere

Paul Revere as painted by John Singleton Copley

Paul Revere’s Ride
 By Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
 (of Cambridge, Massachusetts 1860)

Listen, my children, and you shall hear
Of the midnight ride of Paul Revere,
On the eighteenth of April, in Seventy-five;
Hardly a man is now alive
Who remembers that famous day and year.

He said to his friend, “If the British march
By land or sea from the town to-night,
Hang a lantern aloft in the belfry arch
Of the North Church tower as a signal light,
One, if by land, and two, if by sea;
And I on the opposite shore will be,
Ready to ride and spread the alarm
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Drone used for Extortion

Drone used for Extortion 150 150 Jason Stadtlander

Thursday morning Susan Parker glanced out of her window at 1522 Main Street in Springfield and saw a bird fly by her kitchen window while she was making coffee. Twice out of the corner of her eye the bird flew by so fast she couldn’t tell what kind of bird it was. She went about the rest of her morning and left for the News station where she was an evening weather anchor, her husband Kevin having left two hours before.

When Susan got home later that evening she sat down at her desk and checked her email. In an email attachment was a photograph of her naked, standing in her bathroom door having just taken a shower. The email was from an anonymous email address and the words on the screen said:

“Bring $5000.00 in unmarked bills in the hand bag near your closet to the Central Bus station and leave it under the first bench by the door. If you do not, this and several other photos of you will be transmitted to all social media by 9 p.m. tonight.”

After searching around, Susan found the bag mentioned in the email, it was her black handbag she had used about a week ago. How did they know about the bag and how did they take photos of me? She wondered. She searched the house and found no cameras or forced entry.

 


 

DroneHow did the criminal get photos of her? He used a drone that he had purchased at his local mobile phone store. It has the ability for him to use his mobile phone to control the drone remotely and has an HD video camera built into it. It is controlled over WiFi. He had brought a mobile WiFi hot spot with him to host it. He was able to get high quality photos and snoop in through the window without ever entering her home.

Did this all really happen? No, at least not to my knowledge. But it raises to question of how appropriate it is that such tools/toys are out there in the retail world. Don’t get me wrong, I’m a geek and would love to test one of these bad boys out. However it seems logical to me that there should also be some sort of regulation, licensing, etc. to control who has the ability to buy such devices that have the potential for not only privacy invasion, but also covert surveillance such as this or scoping out a home prior to a break in. Although there are many other situations that are  regulated that never stop criminals from doing what they do. Just because it’s against the law, doesn’t mean it will prevent people from doing it. Is it just the age we live in?

What say you?

POEM: The Dreams That Once Were

POEM: The Dreams That Once Were 150 150 Jason Stadtlander

by Jason P. Stadtlander

 

The dreams that are shattered and the dreams that will be
Are never the dreams that were meant for me.
They follow the the path of leastest resistance
Feeding the pain in endless consistence.

I care not for the end of what future holds
For preference of sleep eternal unfolds.
The breath of my lungs and beat of my heart
Pound out the rhythm for every start.

From every start to every end
The numbness and prison from which I must bend.
Following paths regardless of action
Forcing the bridle to make it’s attraction.

Fuck this life, and the dreams for which I have told
Each day is a headache and fruitless to hold.
For it ends at this moment as life drips out
Leaving behind the hopeless and doubt.

And behind what is left of the dreams I once held?
Nothing but darkness and flowers I once smelled.
Flowers I smelled and darkness…

 

Where the Wild Things Are – Punishing Children (and keeping your sanity)

Where the Wild Things Are – Punishing Children (and keeping your sanity) 150 150 Jason Stadtlander

Boy having temper tantrumMy son runs to me in a sing-songy voice screaming “Daaad, he just hit my eye with the baaaaallll!”, clearly not injured. To which I look at him and casually say “Really?” and he runs off back to play with his brother.

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At some point, as a parent you reach a breaking point, where the desire to grab both of their heads by the hair and slam them together becomes overwhelming and you know you need to step away. It can be even more stressful when you’re the only parent around and you are trying to take care of chores around the house that you would much rather assign to your children.

I will admit to having moments when I’d rather just let them battle it out. Hell, my siblings and I did. Many a cut, scrape or bloody nose I can attribute to my little sister and little brother. That’s just all part of being kids. Do I love them any less or regret our fights? No. They have made us stronger and who we are.

(Here come the five famous words) When I was a kid, if I didn’t watch my mouth, obey my parents or if I was (caught) beating on my brother or sister, I got a hand to the backside. That’s right, a spanking. I know, crazy huh? Even more crazy is my father was never thrown in jail for child abuse and my mother never served a day in court due to taking a brush to my behind (I guess her hand hurt to spank?).

Girl having temper tantrumAm I less a person for being spanked or being handled more physically? No, absolutely not. Did my parents ever abuse me? No, absolutely not.

Now being a parent myself, there are times that it pains me that I cannot (in today’s society) spank my children. To date, I have never given my children a spanking, but there have most definitely been times they deserved it. Not many, my kids are overall very good children, but everyone has moments that they are out of control.

I am not saying that you should be able to go out and beat your child. Beating and spanking are FAR different.

Part of the problems with today’s society is:

  • You have a group of people governing laws and methodologies that don’t even have children themselves. What gives them the right to say what is a proper way to parent or what is not?
  • People expect you to “reason” with children. And yes, when they are over the age of 7 or 8, you absolutely can most of the time reason with them. Then again, there are some 14-17 year olds who you can’t reason with at all. But you can’t be expected to have an adult conversation with a four year old who is throwing a temper tantrum, I’m sorry it’s stupid, plain and simple.

That being said, what do you do when the “Wild Thing” comes out in your child? Well, there are several well accepted and proven ways that I have found to control children:

  1. Time outs – they work wonders, especially when forced to sit on a time-out chair or time-out step.
  2. Standing in a corner – Nose to the wall, unable to move and must stand still until you are told you can get off. If the child steps away, then tell them they just earned another minute. (And keep a real timer going starting around 2-5 minutes) Yes, they will whine and cry and maybe even wipe their nose on the wall, but that’s life.
  3. Take away privileges – Grounding. Very good, but you MUST hold to your guns. If you say they can’t touch iPad for a week. Then do it, don’t cave in! Now, after the grounding has had some time to think in, there is nothing wrong with “earning” back the privilege by reading, doing chores, etc. It both gives them the ability to get their privileges back and it helps them gain responsibility.
  4. Ignore them – This is really only effective in 2-5 year olds. If they are screaming that they want your attention, turn away. You can turn back long enough to tell them that you will talk to them when they can talk to you like a big boy /girl.

My biggest piece of advice as a parent: No matter what your relationship is with your child’s other parent (Married, Divorced, etc.), Never ever contradict their punishment (as long as it is adequate). It not only disrespects and undermines them as a parent, it shows the child that they can control one of you.

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Going Nuts over Nuts and Those Digestive Guts

Going Nuts over Nuts and Those Digestive Guts 150 150 Jason Stadtlander

Going Nuts over Nuts and Digestive GutsI work out pretty regularly and one thing I’m always looking for is protein and good ways to satisfy those munchies in-between meals. One of my big go-to munchies are nuts, especially almonds.

Sometimes You Feel Like a Nut…

Now, I’ve never had any allergies to nuts so I have never really thought twice about eating them except for fat content from time to time. But let’s face it, I’m a guy and at the end of the day, I don’t really care much about a few grams of fat here and there. Well, recently I got some trail mix from Trader Joe’s and it has peanuts, almonds, cashews, chocolate chips, peanut butter chips and cranberries in it, very yummy. However, after eating a few handfuls I found myself feeling bloated. At first I thought I must have eaten something odd other than the trail mix, but later found that when I tried eating it again, I had the same problem. After doing some research, I found that peanuts are not as good for the digestive tract as I always thought they were. In fact, different nuts have very different properties. I tried cutting out peanuts from the mix (ate the rest that was in it), and voila, no problems. Here are a couple interesting facts I learned about peanuts along the way:

  • Peanuts can get a fungus that generates poisons called aflatoxins. Apparently aflatoxins can cause liver damage.
  • Peanuts are not actually nuts, they are legumes, edible seeds.
  • They are not only high in protein, they are high in vitamins and minerals.
  • Some people may not have severe allergic reactions to peanuts such as anaphylaxis, but may in fact have allergic reactions that present themselves in digestion issues.

More NutsWhich Nut is the Right Nut?

So… that brings me to the next question. What are the best nuts to eat, and why? I thought it would be best to lay out some of the facts I found along the way first:

  • Raw nuts, especially almonds, cashews and walnuts have been linked to lower cholesterol and help with weight control. That’s right, eating nuts can actually help you lose weight.
  • Walnuts help fight inflammation because of the omega-3 fatty acids (brain food) they contain.
  • Almonds are high in fiber and very good for your digestive system. They also are high in antioxidants.
  • Brazil nuts are very high in selenium, which has been proven to prevent some cancers such as bone, prostate and breast cancer.
  • Pistachios contain less than four calories each, making them the “skinniest” nut you can eat. They’ve also been shown to reduce lung cancer.

So which nut is my favorite? Well… If I have my choice, cashews are my favorite. Why? Because they they are high in iron and magnesium (which helps with your neurological system) and doggone it, they just taste great! Which nut is your favorite?

Soul-mates: Across The Winds of Time

Soul-mates: Across The Winds of Time 150 150 Jason Stadtlander

A seven year old girl went riding her bike through the woods one day. Enjoying the feeling of the grass hitting her legs and rolling through the dips, avoiding the ruts. The warm summer breeze blew through her blouse. She peddled onward and through a stream to the other side, then along the shallow bank.

The little girl came to a stop next to a large hickory tree and pulled out a small blanket from a backpack she was wearing and carefully spread it out on the grass and sat in the shade under the old tree. The girl pulled out a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and began to eat it, while watching dragon flies playing on the water of the stream a foot below her.

Something glittered across the stream and she looked up in time to see a boy her age, on a bike passing through the trees. The boy stopped his bike, looking at the girl who he had never seen before but knew so well. He turned the front wheel and pointed it at the stream, crossing it and leaning his bike on the hickory tree, he sat down on the blanket next to the girl. She handed him the other half of her sandwich and looked at the boy, the other half of her. In their innocence of youth, all they knew was the comfort of the moment.

“Hi.” She said.

“Hi.” He said

The two sat watching the dragonflies and then laying on the blanket watching clouds float by. Finally the two said the only other three words that they would say that day to each other.

“See you soon.” He said.

“See you soon.” She said.

And off they went on their separate ways.

Soulmates

Years later the girl, now a young woman was walking along a small street in Italy, having traveled for two semesters in college. She felt the cobblestones under her feet, smelled the aroma of fresh bread on the air and saw a small cafe, where she stopped to get a cappuccino. As she stepped in the old worn wooden screen door,the summer breeze blew against her back. Once she had received her cappuccino, she sat at a small table outside. As she sat there, she watched a fountain and two sparrows playing in the water. Looking up the young woman saw clouds listlessly floating by. The door on the cafe opened and out came a young man. He walked over and sat at a table next to her drinking a cappuccino of his own. The man was reading a small brochure about tourism in the small Italian town. He glanced up and saw her pale hazel eyes locked on him. And he knew in that instant that she was that little girl that he had met under that hickory tree. That little girl that he had known for hundreds of years.

His soul-mate, reunited.

Mortality – How will you be remembered?

Mortality – How will you be remembered? 150 150 Jason Stadtlander

There will come a time when all of us are no longer walking on this planet.

I know… positive topic, but I’m sure you all think about this from time to time.

Wooden Cross Alone

Most times people are remembered by the things they do or the people the touch. But often, people are remembered by the way they died or where they died.

You can be driving along the road and see a cross along the side of the road, remembering that someone was killed by a drunk driver. Or see a wing in a library dedicated in memory of someone that loved to read.

No one can be sure how they will be remembered. It all depends on what you do with your life, who you touch and what the circumstances around your death will be.

So my question to you is how will you be remembered?

  • Will you be remembered by a small cross along the highway?
  • Will you be remembered by the laughter that you brought to people?
  • Will you be remembered through your children and what they’ve learned from you?
  • Will you be remembered for your art?
  • Will you be remembered through the battle you fought?
  • Will you be remembered as a tyrant or a slime ball?
  • Will you be remembered as a scoundrel and liar – an example of who not to be?
  • Will you be remembered as someone that helped those in need?

And what evidence will there be that you were here in the end?

A hundred and fifty years from now, those that we touched will most likely no longer be around. So what evidence will there be that you existed and made a difference (no matter how small) on the world around you?

  • Will there be a monument in your name?
  • Will there be a wing on a hospital in your name?
  • Will there be a simple wooden cross?
  • Will there be a tombstone?
  • Will there be videos of you imparting your wisdom on the generations to come?
  • Will there be songs that still touch people centuries after you’ve gone?
  • Will there be a quote that people remember you saying?
  • Will there be website dedicated to you in honor of a cause you fought?
  • Will there be a company that you created that continues to flourish?

There is a poem that I’ve read that always strikes a cord with me. But – in the end I’m not sure that it applies to more than a hundred or so years beyond the average person’s existence.

“THE MEASURE OF A MAN”

Not – How did he die? But – How did he live?
Not – What did he gain? But – What did he give?

These are the things that measure the worth
Of a man as a man, regardless of birth.

Not – What was his station? But – had he a heart?
And – How did he play his God-given part?

Was he ever ready with a word of good cheer?
To bring back a smile, to banish a tear?

Not – What was his church? Not – What was his creed?
But – Had he befriended those really in need?

Not – What did the sketch in the newspaper say?
But – How many were sorry when he passed away?

These are the things that measure the worth
Of a man as a man, regardless of birth.

 Author: Anonymous

Life and the Volcano of Stress

Life and the Volcano of Stress 150 150 Jason Stadtlander

All of us handle stress differently, some try to unwind by running or exercising, others try to relax by reading a book. What happens though, when the stress is so unbearable that you feel it will crack? What happens when you literally don’t have time to use your normal methods to cool down?

The big question: What is the breaking point of the human mind and its ability to handle stress?

Eventually, you can reach a point in time when daily life feels so hard that you are certain you will break like a branch in the wind. There is that single moment that we can reach that is the trigger point for nervous breakdowns or even suicide.

What is stress exactly?

Let’s first look at what stress is. Stress is your body’s physical response to events or problems that upset your natural balance. When you feel in danger (real or imagined) your body reacts to guard you. When your ability to handle stress is operating normally, it can help you, aiding in your ability to focus and stay alert. When it malfunctions due to stress overload it can have adverse affects on your mind, body and your emotions and how you perceive the world around you.

Unbearable StressSevere stress can lead to:

  • Anxiety
  • Depression
  • Illness
  • Emotional Shutdown (numbness)

Coping mechanisms

How can you cope with extreme stress without taking drastic actions? It’s not easy. I, myself have recently been trying to handle that and it can be very, very unnerving. I have personally found that sleep can be an extraordinary method of stress reduction. Even if it takes something to help you sleep, forcing yourself to sleep can help the mind rest and help you find a way to deal with problems that otherwise you wouldn’t be able to.

Some people choose to deal with stress by:

  • Working out
  • Praying
  • Reckless actions (sex, drugs, alcohol)
  • Vacationing
  • Meditating
  • Singing or playing music

Taking time to get up and step away, even if it’s only to go get coffee or meander somewhere (regardless of whether you have time or not) can help. If you have a choice of blowing up at someone about something that is not related to them or getting out of the room to depressurize, it’s always better to do the latter. Nothing is so important (except maybe saving someone’s life) that you can’t step out of the moment. It can mean the difference between snapping or simply bending the branch that is your psyche. Because you won’t be any good to yourself or the people around you if you really do have a nervous breakdown or worse.

 Discussion

Please, let me and others know below, how do you cope with extreme stress? I value your input and advice.

 

Fire and Ice – The Value of a Touch

Fire and Ice – The Value of a Touch 150 150 Jason Stadtlander

Emotions are like seeds and you can choose to feed them or to kill them.

All my life I’ve been a very emotional person. My emotions are a driving force that help to provide a voice in my writing.

In the past decade I have run into more circumstances than I expected, that put me in such an extremely emotionally stressful situations, that at times it had been absolutely unbearable. The past five years have proven to be some of the most difficult years I’ve ever experienced. During these turbulent times, I’ve chosen to be numb and bury my emotions.

However, emotions being what they are, cannot remain buried forever. They must reach, and grow to the surface eventually… Otherwise they can rot away at the very core of who and what we are.

They sometimes rise to the surface with the ferocity of liquid fire, boiling over and sometimes exploding on anyone within reach. Other times they crack off of the human soul like ice, causing a person to burst out crying when they least expect it and for no apparent reason at all. Or perhaps laugh at something that completely lacks humor.

What happens when the tides are too strong to be moved and diverted? Is there a limit to what we as humans can handle emotionally? I think that it’s only through our ability to express (artistically) and connect with one another that can allow us to hold back the tidal waves that bite at the seawall of our soul.

Even our artistic and creative expression can be disturbing, disjointed and empty. In these most dire of times, what can we do to ensure that we don’t fall into the abyss of cascading downward thought?

Touch of a friendI believe there is only one real answer, and sadly one that not everyone finds, is love. It doesn’t have to be romantic love, it can be love from a friend, an acquaintance, or simply a touch from another person that cares. I remember as a child, my grandparents, teachers and friends… They always had no problem touching a shoulder, giving a hug or providing comfort when it was needed.

What has happened to our society that it is so wrong to be touched? We seem to have a hard time as a society finding a comfortable balance between ‘comfort’ and ‘discomfort’. Is it wrong for a person that you don’t know very well to put a hand on your shoulder or on your hand?

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